Reflecting, wondering, hoping...

As I started writing this post this morning I was sitting under the big coral tree in my back garden thinking over my life this year. I was thinking about the people that I hold ever so dear to my heart and how special they all are. I thought of the one's that have come into my life so quickly and unexpectedly but are now some of my most treasured friends.

This then lead me to think of last year and how it has affected this year. After trauma hit last year (my mom and maid being in a car accident) I was put on light anti-depressants to get through the rest of the year, which I did sucessfully. The only thing is that I stayed on them this year too, which was longer than imagined. For many months now I have wanted to go off of them but I haven't come round to it. Recently I became very determined to go off of them as well as the support from very special man in my life I am currently weening myself off of them- with excitement I may add. It has been over a week of taking half the normal dose and my heart feels so free to laugh and enjoy life, giggle, giggle. I just want to encourage anyone out there that thinks they are never going to get through a emotional trauma or a heart break, I promise you that there is light at the end of the tunnel. Sometimes that light comes with and without the anti-deppresants.

So, there comes a time in the year where you look back on all that has passed and that time to reflect is now for me. Once you've come to terms with the past you sit and wonder and hope for the future. My hopes that I never thought would come true (coming to terms with loss) did and my hope of loving and being loved again came true too.

So won't you sit for a moment and just think of what has been, what is and what is to come...
Refresh and start again.

Love,
SCG**