scgliving

So it has been awhile...

Where to start?

A few things that i have noticed about myself this month:
I love to spend money on luxury things. I would rather buy peacock feathers than groceries. I would rather buy groceries that are tasty than buy because I am suppose to eat 3 meals a day.

I have realised how uncontent i am at things being maintained. I have been in my flat for a month now and am continually creating things to decorate it. I first made collages which i framed and hung on the walls, then i cut out over a hundred paper white butterflies to decorate my room with, then i made collages to line my wardrobes. Since i have resurfaced a lampshade, painted a canvas, painted my shelves turquiose, made posters, made pom poms, bunting, pot planted succulents, re-decorated the bathroom. I have come to some level of peace that i will never be truly content as it is in my personality to create and I LOVE IT! it keeps me alive and kicking!

I have also realised that I feel a lot of outside pressure (or internal pressure) to be friends with a guy for a long period of time. There is some discontentment and underlying question of whether or not, one of us will start liking the other which may create instability in the friendship. There also seems to be outside expectations from friends that you can't just be friends with a guy. But I am trying none the less to enjoy the friendship.

I have realised my need for growth and challenge. If I don't see myself growing in an area or taking ground, then I get dispondent. About once a month I really get depro as I think of how far I've come in a month. Personally, books are a great way to get a feeling of developing my mind. "Rich dad, poor dad" was one of those books that really made me feel like I've learnt something new. I would highly recommend it to anyone.

I've realised my deep need for friendship and relationship. I have realised some friends don't deserve to be in the inner courts of my heart and some people do. Afterall we all need to nourish the gardens of our hearts and surely we wouldn't allow wolves into our gardens, not even rats! okay so I might allow a bunny in though, even though it might eat my grass.

A month has come and gone and I think its a good time to reflect on how we have grown or maybe settled into your new job, old job, new house, old house, new friendships or old... This is the begining of a new year full of opportunities and it is a good indication of what is to come the rest of the year. For one we most probally are the most enthusiastic, energy filled and passionate now more due to a long restful holiday, now is the time to go for it!

So how are you doing/coping/managing/organising/navigating the emotional hickups, circumstances, physical conditions that you are living in?

I do hope it has been an awsome month for you and continues to challenge and excite!

p.s will post again as soon as I find internet:)