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unconditional love-part two. entitled "trust"

After thinking about the last blog post i have developed my way of thinking. I've also been thinking about perspectives and how we can change the way we live by changing our perspective in a situation. Instead of thinking that life needs to be a certain way until we can be happy, we can choose to believe that we have everything we need right now to be happy. What a way of thinking and it has such power to change our lives.

I say this not only because it is true but because this was my turning point in my fight against depression last year. I had been prescribed anti depressants by my doctor which accelerated all my symptoms of depression, weird hey? but obviously i reacted very differently to what was hoped. The pills is not what cured me from my bite of depression but a choice that i had to make for myself. The choice involved making a decision to enjoy life no matter how hard it might be. I also realised that living without the pills was far greater than living with them.

As you may have read ,in my poems, i have experienced much loss in my life over the past few weeks and months but also had great joy and celebration. Over night i gained a sister and lost my African mother. Depression is knocking at my door, tempting me to let it in, but i choose not to. I choose to see the good that I have gained and even cherish what i did have. changing my perspective to focus on the good, delightful and joyous things of this life.

going back to the picture of the boy on the bicycle i have looked at it in a different way. It takes faith and trust in the Father to lift up our hands, release our control and in relationship with the Father look to him for delight. Maybe some of us have not had fathers who support, but one thing i know for sure is that Father God delights in each one of us. It takes faith to risk and it takes faith to merely look to the Father for love and delight. I think we ought to live our lives in faith that no matter what we do we will still know that we are loved. No matter how hard we may have fallen, we are still delighted in.

You may not believe anything that i say but its going to take some level of trust to move beyond doubt.